The Bucket List: The Path to no Regrets

Experience is one thing you cant get for nothing- Oscar Wilde

Many of you have seen, heard or spoke about that list you definitely have make true before you die.
The thing is..."No one" knows when is going to die. So I started this new project showing people my joy after making them true. Because I certainly believe you measure yourself by the people who measure themselves by you, I'll give it a try and who knows...maybe I get to push you to do it for yourself.

What's a bucket list and How to create one?

Simply, It is a list  of life experiences, dreams and goals you desire to achieve before you die.
 You create them daily, through out the day "Today I will sleep early"  "I am going to study today so tomorrow I can chill" "I will stop screwing with the guy from the library..by the end of this month".
The truth is if you can't figure out those plans your life is probably passing  you by.

So, the point of this bucket list is extrapolate those daily goals and make them bigger, just for the JOY of your soul. Have you found joy in your life? Has your life brought joy to others? There is not righter time than the Now, that sounded so Dr. seuss, Hahahah.

In order to help you visualize the magnitude your goal should have or the depth of them, the impact in your life, I recommend you this movie with the Duh name "THE BUCKET LIST" with Sir Morgan Freeman and  Mr. Jack Nicholson.

Trailer for you <3

Take this as reference too:

-What have you always wanted to do but have not done yet?- Any countries, places or locations you want to visit?-What/who do you want to see or meet in person?- What experiences do you want to have/feel? -Any skills or anything you want to learn or try out?- What would you like to say/do together with other people?

THIS NOW IS MY BUCKET LIST 

(Note: I will place a picture/video if is accomplished)

1.  TRAVEL AROUND THE WORLD (Incomplete)

 Toledo, Spain  ( 2007)

 Venecia, Italy. (That's my dad, circa 2007)

2.HAVE A PICTURE WITH SOMEONE WORLDWIDE FAMOUS

3.SKYDIVE

4.MEET MY LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP BOYFRIEND

5. BE AT COMIC CON

6. LEARN ANOTHER LANGUAGES BESIDES SPANISH (Incomplete)

English

7. LEARN MARTIAL ARTS (Incomplete)

(judo, don't own this picture for some reason I never took one, oh yeah.. I was training instead.)

8.LEARN HOW TO SKATE

9. GO SKIING

10. GIVE A HEARTFELT GIFT TO SOMEONE

11. MAKE A DIFFERENCE IN SOMEONE'S LIFE

12.FIND MY REAL PASSION

13. BE EXTRA IN A MOVIE

14. BE THE LEAD IN A TRENDING MOVIE

15. START MY BUSINESS 

16. SING TO AN AUDIENCE

17.DO VOLUNTEER WORK

18. GET A DRINK FOR A STRANGER

19. BEFRIEND A STRANGER

20. DANCE BAREFOOT IN THE RAIN

21. A KISS IN THE RAIN THAT MATTERS

22. SEE THE NORTHERN LIGHTS

23. GO CAMPING

24. GIVE SOMEONE I LOVE, A STAR

25. HAVE A TEA PARTY

26. PUBLISH A BOOK

27.THROW A MEGA PARTY
28. GET WHITE HAIR
29. GET WILD COLOR HAIR

30.BECOME A DOCTOR IN MEDICINE

31. WALK THE RED CARPET

32. HAVE A REALLY CLOSE FRIENDSHIP WITH A FAMOUS KOREAN ACTOR OR SINGER

33. PLAY AN INSTRUMENT

34. TAKE DANCE CLASSES (incomplete)

35. GO ON A ROAD TRIP




(Constanza, 2016)

36. EXPERIENCE TOMORROWLAND

37. BE PART OF A GREAT CAUSE

38. LIVE IN A DIFFERENT COUNTRY AT LEAST FOR 6 MONTHS

39. GET FEATURED IN MEDIA FOR SOMETHING YOU ARE PROUD OF

40. CREATE A DREAM HOME

41. HAVE A DREAM WEDDING

42. LIVE THROUGH 4 SEASONS OF THE YEAR

43.GO ON MEDITATION RETREAT

44.VISIT KOREA/ JAPAN WITH FRIENDS

45. MAKE A TIME BOX WITH SOMEONE

46. PICNIC DAY

47.FLY A HELICOPTER

48. GO ON A ROMANTIC GETAWAY

49. LEARN SIGN LANGUAGE

50. COSPLAY LIKE JESSICA NIGRI

51. GAIN ENLIGHTENMENT

52. ADOPT AN ANIMAL

53. EXPEND MONEY ON LOUBOUTIN PAIR OF SHOES WITH RED SOLE

54. BE HYPE ON LOOKBOOK.NU

55. HAVE A ROCK BAND

56. MAKE THE CUTEST BABY ON EARTH

57.BREAK THE LAW

58. HAVE AN AMAZING WARDROBE

59.LEARN HOW TO BARTEND

60. RIDE THE LONDON EYE

61.GIVE PEOPLE A GOOD REASON TO KNOW MY NAME

62. GET A TATTOO

63. KISS AND HUG A DOLPHIN

64. MEET FRIENDS FROM OTHER COUNTRIES

65. VISIT SLOVENIA WITH MY SIGNIFICANT OTHER

66. TAKE A PICTURE OF MY AURA

(2014, ADASEC)

67. GO TO BRITNEY SPEARS CONCERT

68.Cook big meal for more than 2 people

69. Bdsm

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This is the story about how the universe prepared me to lose her.

Since I can remember, I heard my mom saying how difficult her life was without her mother, how much she had to suffer because of it and how every Christmas she cried. Maybe I was too young or maybe  the universe didn't allow me to empathize with those feelings, to me it was and still is a waste of time, mourning about things that can't be changed. I'm not saying is wrong, but spend and base your life on that unavoidable moment  is absolutely ridiculous, her pain wasn't though.

I've always been an independent person mentally and emotionally, if I can do it alone, I will. My mom was all the way around, she was too co-dependent of everyone else's emotions, thoughts and actions, maybe that's one of the reason we didn't get along that much.

As she was a toxic person to my integrity as a human being, she was too the most devoted mother anyone could have ever asked for. No one, and believe me when I say NO ONE, could or would put a hand or a bad word on me and lived to tell, because she became Athenea when it comes to me.

Time passed I was more eager to leave the house and live on my own, but I was counting I could come back home, and maybe because the distance, my mother and I would be finally best friends.

I am a human being that understand within me that everything in this world, has a balance, a cycle an end and a reason. That's one of the reason I  found people who taught me how the universe, the energy and us work together, and how being an ovum, a sperm, a baby then a kid, later a teenager, an adult, an elder and then death  are just cherries of the same salad. Was amazing how  those explanation made me feel more complete than ever. I managed to avoid unnecessary burden to my life, if something bothers me, talk it out, or walk away. If I don't feel like going to meet someone I just don't go, and so on. I tried teaching that life style to a person who worried about every little thing, someone who was a prisoner of "what the others would say" and some other social atrocities.

And so far there's nothing I regret more, than failing to change her, I wanted her free, I wanted her happy, I wanted her to feel plenty.

My mom silently taught me a lot of things, and tried to teach me some others. One of the things she tried me doing is the importance of giving someone a gift. To me is still a matter of the heart and not because some one is waiting for it, it was like that even for her. As she pushed me to give gifts away the more my self refused, when she finally stopped, I started making gestures to her. One time I bought her a pretty black shoes that now I own, yes for those who didn't know, we could use each other's clothes or at least some of them, all of the shoes and jewelry.

I'm grateful that I voluntarily took my mom out to eat sushi, on the night would be her last birthday.
 I dressed up pretty, because she always wanted me to look like a doll, I drove her to the place, I toke her order, we ate, we talked, she managed to make me feel awful in front of the owner of the place which happens to be an acquaintance of mine, but that was her... I would never be an adult to her. But that's fine, I made my part, and tried to make her happy, I really wanted.

She hated be taken pictures, but that night I took  a couple, and started to take pictures of her, and with her, just because, I didn't had enough pictures with her. And now that's all I have left.

Most people don't know this, but I knew I was going to lose her while I was young, since the first time she told me, she lost her mother while being a teen something made click inside of me. For some reason I thought would be on my 17th birthday, why 17 you ask? I don't know, it just kept poping in my head, but I was wrong. So I kinda believed everything else was my mind overreacting.

A young person who managed to live inside her room with very few necessities, came out to full fill those, I found myself running to her room to hug her and stay at least 5 min under her body while she was watching tv, was so rare, she asked me if everything was ok, but I couldn't just say I needed to hug her, because I simply missed her.

June 5th, was an ordinary day, I was home doing my thing on the internet, chatting with my boyfriend, and my friends,I get a call from a friend asking me to go out, but besides my laziness something else made me say no, several times. My parents arrived home, mom was getting ready to sleep when some squeezing pain on her chest attacked her, she was pale, cold, dizzy and lightheaded. As medicine student She asked me to get my sphygmomanometer which I did, but her pressure was normal. She went to the bathroom, dad and I were getting ready to take her to the hospital, I found her losing consciousness while sitting on the toilet, there was no time for me to freak, I knew she was having a heart attack, I ran and looked for aspirin, I found the only white pills we had and smashed them, gave it to her under her tongue and dressed her to go.

As soon as we arrived the hospital, I could see how terrible the system is and the lack of humanity in my future colleagues, she wasn't taken seriously until my uncle who happens to be a doctor arrived, and speed them up.

Mom was treated, watched over, and went back home, as a new person. The situation scared the shit out of her. But that was just the beginning.

The next 3 months would change our lives. Her heart needed a bypass, which means take an artery from a leg or so and make a bridge with it in her heart, surgery date was august 5th, she had to eat healthy, she did, I was surprised. But after a week or so we ran to the situation where her pleural space started to storage liquids, pleural effusion, had to get inside intensive care once more and longer, she spent approximately 18 days, her family from all over the country came to see her, everyone was rooting for her health, I was giving up.

I became my mom's personal taxi, I started to behave like an adult, making appointments taking her to them, all she ever did for me while growing up, I did it during those 3 months. I showered her, i cleaned her, I feed her and so on. The universe let me pay some of my debts to her.

After those 18 days, she came back home, the doctors said was mom's fault all of that was happening to her because she wasn't doing enough the breathing exercise, but they were wrong. The truth is her heart never started as it should have to compensate the other organism functions. And thanks to that I blamed her, I hated her, because I saw how she was giving up on her life, how she was giving up on me.

The truth is she lasted longer because she fought, like a real warrior. (I'm sorry mother to take your credit away). She said how badly the nurses treated her, making her feel miserable, and I thought she was just being ultra sensitive like usually she was. I told her to not feel bad, because i thought they were treating her like that for her to gain strength and work harder to get out of intensive care, but I guess I was wrong again, and I failed to protect you.

 A week later, after those 18 days, she went back to intensive care, was Friday, 12th, she woke up great, because finally she had a very good night sleep, but after a couple of hours, she started to feel bad again, and so we had to take her to the hospital, her lungs were getting filled up with liquids again. Had to stay in intensive care for second time. I had her breathing exercise device, so I ran inside the room to give it back in case she needed it, and ran out so i wouldn't get scolded by the hospital personal, I didn't know "Bye ma' "  would be my last words to her and maybe she didn't even hear it. Since no one can stay with her inside that area, I left, went home with my cousin and aunt, to eat and rest, so we would come back at 5 pm for visit hour.

That day I ate, took a nap, woke up with a weird feeling, it was getting late for us to leave to the hospital, so I started to get my bed done, and while folding the sheets in my head I said "She can't die like this" and deeper inside me I heard "she should just stop suffering".

Driving to the hospital, normal, we've been in that trip for months, I left my aunt and cousin to walk to the intensive care hall while I was parking the car. I arrived, and as soon as I did, with my mind full of superfluous thoughts, another aunt hug me and says "She's gone" "your mom is gone".

The necessity of hugging was only hers, I was just waiting the laugh and the next part of the joke, when she says that was it, just a really bad joke. I did not cry,  looked for my dad and went there. There was my mom's sister crying about her baby sister, broke my heart, and one of her favorite niece, and my dad all crying in a mourning sonata.

Tears slipped down my cheeks, and my nose started running, but I was numb. The next thing I know is people looking at me in pitty, my friends rushing to arrive and spend some time with me at the hospital before I left the city to bury my mom's flesh body. Oh and I went to pathology, I saw her laying there, with injured face, cold, and stiff. I shook her, I begged her to wake up, called her eomma, ma', mami, but there was no reply, it was true, she wasn't coming back, this wasn't a sick joke.

Next morning I woke up at Romana, where she was born, the place she loved like nowhere else, the place she was free to herself. The funeral wasn't something of my taste. Watching my mom laying in a white coffin while people started to sing and mumble christian jumbo, that I knew in my heart wasn't true, was deplorable., people hugging me, looking at me to see my reaction to see me crying and perhaps calculate how much I'm in pain for the amount of tears and cries I shout, people trying to convert me to their christian bullshit with the "If you want to see her again in heaven you have to accept Christ in your heart" all the time that happened was tactless and hurtful. That's when I realized, funerals are for the family not the deceased, is egoist, is stupid but comforting, not for me of course, remember I am a weird bug. Even tho was nice hearing people talking so good about my mom, it frustrated me, because some of them never called her, never took her out of her depression. So it really keeps me thinking people are good and great just after they are dead, same with paintings, same with singers.

Is been a month, and I have been eating the same, doing the same, and almost feeling the same. Except few times during the day I think of her, and her absence echoes in my soul. I never felt her lingering in here, so that actually comforts me, I know shes getting healed and treated well in this new phase of her self being. I just wonder If she still thinks of me.

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Ai JOURNEY II [Collection]

Ok, i know is been a while i even feel ashamed of my doze off, but i'm back to show you the few illustrations i've done, still not good at all XD BUT i never thought i'd be able to make things look quite decent.

So please comment bellow, i cant stop using the brush, if you have any advice or any other opinion just comment, COMMENT :3

I like polka dots so i made this out of the blue for my twitter account.
 I can be an aerospace plumber now.

HAHA ok i know i suck, please ignore my gore writing in the right. As you can see i made this for my boyfriend, for valentine. Feel free to judge.

Well yeah this one is for our 16th monthsary as you may well read. The silhouette down left is where i live,

 the silhouette up right is where he lives. 

Can you guess where are those? COMMENT BELLOW :3 let me see how good you are in geography. Or guessing ahaha whatever suits your better.

For those who ever been in a long distance relationship knows how lonely it can be. Although is easy to guess even if your are not in one. Is ok, you know why? Because it worth it.
This one was made in a very emo-tional mode. ._. 

 

 Odin knows isn't easy, but  the universe know we are meant to be together <3

This one i just finished righhhhht now, i made it for my bestie Cinthia because of her pie birthday

 ( [3.14] 14/03/14 ) Happy birthday sweetie :3

And well that was pretty much all my Sh*t, feel free to comment bellow how much you hate it or how much you don't or whatever.

Any advice, anything at all. Don't worry i wont make a living out of this for obvious reasons.

Thanks for taking your time to check on this.

K.

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HUNTER TIPS: Pro-Valentine Edition (ideas for him/her)

Illustration by Rvaar Designs

Hallo everyone!

This time i'm here because I've noticed the worldwide commotion about this commercial day called San Valentin, Valentines, वैलेंटाइन, Valentijnsdag, バレンタイン, 발렌타인 데이, Valentim... etc, etc..

And of course I've been a victim of it. But i declare you do not need a specific day to show your S.O how much you love them, i truly believe is a thing you oughta do day after day.

Most of people gets totally in despair, when it comes to  give a gift away. I'll try my best to help you out a bit or at least inspire you, with this hunter tip edition of me getting or better said hunting ideas for you guys.

You know i do my research, so this time i asked a few men (13)  about what to they rather get as valentines gift, if they appreciate more a crafted gift or just a mere purchased one and this was pretty much the distribution:

Population: Men between 21 to 26 years old

Sample: 13 men

Incredible but true men do like to receive crafted stuff, they said because they appreciate the effort that person put in the handmade gift and is easier to see how much their girls really know them, besides you can see that they didn't just buy something to fullfill some sort of obligation. (6 out of 13 choose crafted gift)

3 out of 13 choose Purchased, because  they rather get as gift something they really need  and still means a lot because everytime they see that element they can remember their significant other helping them.

This guys want them all or they don't complicate their existence at all, 3 out of 13 picked both, justification? because they like getting stuff they need but they like the effort and the amount of creativity to takes to make a handmade stuff.

Of all answers this two comments were the ones that made me roll off my chair laughing:

 "Obviously a crafted one because i like creativity and when my woman gives me something she made herself and is creative it makes me wanna fuck her really hard, I hope this was sufficient"

" I rather get a handmade gift, but i know the rest of the men would choose a purchased because a 3DS inspire love 

but a playstation 4 is a is a choking love, and i don't blame them"

So ladies.. 

FOR HIM

On Pinterest

 In my opinion this is something I've always wanted to do, which actually i did, but i haven't been able to deliver it.  You can take a big nutella container, obviously after cleaning it, you can spray your perfume in it and in  even more in the inside of the cap, you'll use the perfume he loves the most, could be a body lotion or whatever smell he loves on you, let it dry , then proceed to write as m.any as short papers you feel like with messages and of course stuff you like about them.

 (a couple of Hershey's Kisses or something else, always a plus plus )

I am a big fan of  accompanying gifts and special days with self made food, simple or elaborated is always great to try.

This cute pancake have the normal mixture vanilla color, and in order to make the heart part get a dispenser add the same mixture although you can add some cinnamon and to get the pink or red color  add a couple of drops of vegetal-food coloring.

by Annie-eats

This looks amazingly yummy, is a heart shaped dark chocolate brownie with an ice cream ball and raspberries, to get the full easy recipe please click on Annie-eats bellow the picture.

By Sharpie




Today i found out that you can personalize your sharpies, you enter to  mysharpie dot com, and you can easily  put a message on the back of your sharpie like the image above, you choose the font, the size, and the color of your sharpie, but the thing is you cannot ask just for one, it goes from 6 units to 100
6 units cost  $11.99

But is a really cool gift. I mean who doesn't love sharpies?

This is a great idea if your S.O loves tv series or anime, because then your gift is pretty much found.
All you need to do is download BITCOMET

Download here 

It is a download management that with this web page " Torrent.eu "  as your allies, you'd get so effin laid, that you better come back and comment here. 

it s pretty easy just go to the page torrent.eu type the full name of the serie, anime, movie or world tour, plus the season if is full season or one in specific. Once you typed and press enter you'll get a list of found elements get the one with more seeders always above of 500 seeders or so, and try to keep the size of the file below 700/800 MB or else is gonna take longer to download. 

After that step is done what is left to do is burn a DVD with Nero and  craft a front thing for the DVD case. 

Population: Women between 19 to 27 years old

Sample: 13 Women

Needs no further explanations, women loves watching her man striving for her. 

so men look closely at this.

FOR HER

Women sort of... are easier, most of the things above for the men also apply to the ladies, for example, if a man  comes to me with a yummy dessert that he made and the full pack of SUPERNATURAL episodes, or HUNTER X HUNTER (anime), SAKURA CARD CAPTORS (also anime), for me, he can pretty much forget the  ring.

Ok let me begin.

Easy,  just gather a bunch of little stuff she likes, her favorite chocolate, her favorites songs, her favorite soda, her favorite flower, her favorite movie, her favorite snack, and a pack of condom but this one is for you because you're probably getting laid if you play your cards well, don't forget a well heart felt letter that she can read one you leave.

Women treasure every moment, and surely remember  a lot and loves to do it, because of that

you're never wrong with a hand made mini album of you two were she can look at and fell in love over and over again, of course this gift will look great with a single white rose, or a single of her favorite flower and her favorite chocolate.

I found this web page were you can print your instagram pictures Click here.

Everyone loves to get compliments, women are by far not the exception, and if she can get it whenever she wants just by taking this cool  deck of cards and reading it over and over again, is genius.

You can well decorate ever card with plastic jewels and stuff  stickers or else you think she will like and that's it.

In case your girl is one of those that loves fashion tendencies, or simply is crazy about accessories or maybe is more attached to objects get her a cute necklace, the simpler the more intimate.

Something she can wear on daily basis that reminds her of you and let her friends ask her where did she get such cute piece of accessory and so she can proudly say "my wonderful boyfriend got it for me". Make sure is a unique piece or as unique as possible, please don't go to the store right in the corner or chinatown unless of course you can find something meaningful and unique in chinatown other wise please, keep calm and get to Romwe.

One of the bests gifts, could be get kidnapped on vacation, could be for a whole day, two days, a week, a month. But there's nothing better than spending some quality time with your S.O

a good camera, a map, gas, and snacks

And it doesn't have to be expensive, meaning it could be a whole day on the beach and sleep in there. Or go to a mountain get a tent and have cute moments let her feel free for a day and she will always be thankful.

Okay i think is enough, if you have any other good ideas please comment bellow and be kind to tell me what you think about this post (you don't need to make an account to comment so come on ; )  ).

*Note: none of this images belongs to me*

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My journey on illustrator

 Looking at my boyfriend getting busy with his amazing designs and seeing great others all over the web, i decided to undertake a journey in this design/drawing world, just for leisure and part of my breaking laziness project.

It took me whole day to install and think what should i do first. While my super amazing boyfriend was sharing his screen so he could teach me some basics tools, i was thinking on what should i make first.


So i followed the next equation: 
 Me +narcissist + drawing+ love.





And this is what i got:


-Have mercy-

So, yes, this first design is dedicated to that one special person in my heart.

I'll keep practicing!!


What do you think about my first try? Or any other opinion? ^_^ comment bellow, if you have your own illustration i would pretty much love to see them, share it with us!

K.

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